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Friday, November 25, 2005

Catching Up.

I've finally got home not to long ago, about the day before thanksgiving. I escaped from my prisons of the sins and walked. ... Here's what happened.

From having a small walk and talk with Shiro, he gave me a gift, a shawl that he been wanting to give me as a gift for being 'his mother'. Well, aside from that, I told him to go back to the house while I stay out there to think, and well he did. From there I walked and something cut me on my stomach, and it started to bleed very badly. And I look and it was Wrath and Pride. And before I knew it... Greed injected me with something on the back of my head and I was knocked out.

For days I've been trying to contact Kyuzo, Arcana, Othello, Anyone in the house... but I had no luck. They kept me sleep for so long, I guess they found out that the stars can communicate through telepathy. And well I'm pretty strong so they kept knocking me out everytime I tried waking  up.

On my last day there in my prison, I had heard Arcana's voice, saying how all of them were monsters (the sins) and how she doesn't want to be like them, and then there was silence. So from there Wrath had told them to go out into the city not to far from here and kill everyone in the city. And as I escape soon after they left, I saw the massacre... Hundres, Thousands of people killed, it was chaos.

I was in search of Arcana, but in my weaken state due to the lack of food and proper sleep, I couldn't much do of anything but Crawl. There Envy came and pretty much tortured me with insults and nearly forced me to return, until Wrath called him off.. From there, it's been three days since I left that place walking to find the Manor.

I arrived at the gate, and then walked to the manor and walked inside, taking a hot bathe and eating a hot meal and I went to take a long good rest upon my bed.

So I'm now just getting up, finding the house to be a mess, and writting this to you all.

So that's what happened.

I'm not much to talk about it, I'm still tired... plus it's ThanksGiving..... oh the joy

-Aya


Thursday, October 20, 2005

The Return Home: The Manor.

It's been five exact years since the final battle with Itachi, since Luna ran away with Yotsuba, since I left... and everyone else dissappeared. I was the first to arrive to the Manor, after Kyuzo. Telling me the current situation, I was to send the letters out to the previous stars, however, I don't know if they have recieved them or not.

Well, my stay at the manor for the few couple of weeks were disturbing, knowing how and why everything happened it's just reliving it like a ghost.. the old song sung over again. in my dreams I had picture this child, couldn't differ the ages between 10-15... however I did a small drawing of her... which how she appeared in my dream...

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It was a child with blonde hair and brown eyes, very small. She was a prophet which why this painting seems a bit farfetched about her. I told Kyuzo about her and asked him to pick her up, she'll be behind a restuarnt eating left overs from a Chinese Restuarnt in the United States. He fought for a slight minute but at the end decided to meet her. And I thanked him for it.

He didn't tell me much about her when he picked her up, but he only asked that I may fix her room in the Manor, he'll be our (Kyuzo and myself) first Guest. Knowing that everyone will soon arrive after her. He explained to me her past, from what she said anyway. "To put it in easy terms she's a street urchent" Which right away I knew that she had to steal in order to survive the harsh cruel world of the streets. He also explained that she was a bit hard to handle then he came home with her, over his shoulder. I quickly assumed that he had knocked her out.

He handed her over to me and told me to clean her up and put her in her room. And of course I did. She was covered in dirt, I'd say about three layers of it, and her hair... had no end. But I cleaned her up and made her look like a young lady she is... and put her to bed. From my point of view she seemed to be rather small, fragile. When Kyuzo had told me her age... 15, it was hard to believe she was 15... she's so small.... I'd say she weighs in about 90-95 pounds at best.

And from under all that dirt, all that grease, she looked like this... She was covered in bruises and scars, unhealed scars at that, so I patched her up and let her rest. What Kyuzo had told me about her past, how she was with no name, 15 years old, mal-nurished, no family, and no home. I had to think on how on earth did she survive the streets, the streets of America at that. She's a blessing, however Kyuzo told me she called herself a curse.
She revealed to him, as he told me, that she could sometimes see what's going to happen in the next 'scene' or anytime in the near future. He had told me that she was a bit inexperienced which was all understandable because she doesn't even know of what great gift she has resting within her soul. Yes... she's the one.

Well she's well now and eating fine, after only being here for two days. Then Dorian, Othello arrived, Then Shiro and Myoubi, It was nice to see them again. Then I had recently recieved a letter from Luna, under a pen name of Nyx Ikesik. She had asked me to pick up Vana from the other Deminsion where Yotsuba and Luna have been hiding all this time, she explained the time difference between her deminsion and mine, that her deminsion was up to four or five years fast that this deminsion. She told me of her daughter, Vana, and how she, Luna that is, believes her to be a star. And how she has the 'mark', Luna's angel wing birthmark, on her back. So I wrote to her back saying that I will accept and that I would pick her up by Thursday. I sent the letter and I believe she accepted.

I could only imagine how Luna turned out to be... >.> A house wife. Just like this... XD

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I couldn't help but laugh, however I went to pick Vana up on Thrusday, like planned, when Kyuzo left for a couple of hours from the Manor. I drove far so Dorian or anyone else would think I'm able to connect to different deminsion with a key using Nen. Anyway... I drove out of the country entering a different one, pulling over from the highway, and opening the portal to Luna's deminsion and appeared at her doorstep. I rang the doorbell, and there she was, looking the same as she always did, and Yotsuba... with his rudeness. We exchanged words of conversation, hi and how are you?'s and nice to see you's and also a few hugs here and there. And then I just had to ask him....

If he knew anything about the Seven Deadly Sin... he had told me that it was one of the agreements between heaven and hell to keep the locked away. And never to be spoken of again. He was upset that they have been released around the same time his daughter was to join the stars... and he asked me to look over her, and I promised. I promised him and Luna that she'll be alright. It was cute how he embarassed her... it was all too funny.

We teleported back to my deminsion and I told her to put her stuff in the trunk and fasten her seatbelts and drove back to the Manor. I asked a few things like if she was hungry. She said no. If she liked music, she said yeah. So I turned on the radio of my car and we listened to some music on our way to the Manor. She was like WOW and COOL it was all too funny. I couldn't help the fact that she looks so much like her mother that I nearly called her Luna.

I wouldn't be surprised if the same thing happened to the other people in the Manor. I told her a few good points, 1. stay in your room until everything is settled between her, myself, and Kyuzo. 2. not to get in Kyuzo's way. and 3. feel at home. She was so excited I think she nearly pissed her pants.

As I showed her to her room, Kyuzo arrived home, and he was angry. And he looked at Vana and from the look in his eyes I knew that he knew that It was Luna and Yotsuba's daughter. And he was so angry that I kindly told Vana to go to her room. And she did.

Kyuzo and I started to argue, it was because of Vana of what she is rather than who she is. I asked him to just give her a chance. He insisted that that chance was to be proven today, I told him that she just arrived and she needs rest. I also told him that if she wanted to stay she's going to have to prove her worth here at the Manor and at the duties of being a star to him. It's what I also mentioned to her in the Car. He said fine and we both went our seperate ways.

The next day I woke up got ready and went downstairs. There was Kyuzo and Arcana, he sending her off to bed since she stayed up again all night. And he looked towards me and told me to call Vana from her room. I did, walking down the hall knocking on her door telling her it was time to go. She opened the door and followed me down stairs. And there I asked her to sit down, and so we all sat down and Kyuzo asked her for her hand. She gave her hand to him and he took out his blade and stabbed her. To my surprise she didn't whence, ouched, nothing. I believe that Kyuzo noticed too.

"You have until 5" he told her.... She looked at me, and I looked at her, then at Kyuzo and asked him. "Five what?" He looked at him, wiping the blood from his blade. "To do something." We both had thought that she was in some sort of Shocked. "As I thought, she's in shock... Go home." That was his judgement. I found it to be unfair and said "Anyone who would have their arm grabbed and stabbed would be shocked too." Then she had interrupted and her arm was healed. Kyuzo, by then, passed judgement saying "Your a demon, Go home." And I stood her ground and told him that it was a pathetic test and that she would stay under my wing. He walked up to me and slapped me. Shouting... then he looked at Vana, punching the wall. Silence fell for a moment. Then he said to Vana. "Stay out of my way, and if you're going to be here don't be a burdern like her." I could only imagine how angry she must feel.

She came towards me and asked me if I was alright, and I told her that I was fine. I then told her I would go finish up what little sleep period I have left. So I went to my room and slept.

Shortly after, I woke up and made a cup of coffee and went outside with a shawl on, painting tools and went to the back garden and began to finish on my painting. There I've seen Vana come out and admired about Stealth's tree. I told her it was now a grave, because we don't know when he will wake up again. She seemed said at the story so I asked her if she liked the painting I did. She looked at it and said it was pretty. I apologized to her for the quite and dull day in the manor. She quickly assured me that she was having fun and such. Then Luna ran out to find me, telling me that Kyuzo needed to see me. I bid Vana farwell and went inside.

There Othello, Arcana, and Vana went their own ways and there stood Kyuzo with a bouquet of white roses. He walked up towards me and handed me the roses, apologizing for his reaction and saying that I was around about not judging people of who or what they are as a person, but what they can do and capable of. He held me close and kissed me on the lips, apologizing once more.

After a long conversation about Vana, we both decided that she stays under one rule... she's going to have to do everything in her power to prove Kyuzo that she has to stay. And from that, we both bid our goodnight and went to our respective rooms and slept for the night.

-Aya.


Thursday, October 06, 2005

The Second Coming... 






                          This isn't over....
                                               This isn't done...
                                                                This is only the beginning.

The Soul Surivivors of The Stars of Destiny, hear this and hear this well, a new danger has approached the Earth.  The Seven Deadly Sins have been unleashed from the Chamber of Pandora; Envy, Wrath, Glutony, Avarice, Lust, Pride, Sloth.  The Chamber of Pandora is located at the bottom, in a secret cavern, of the red sea.  The Chamber of Pandora has been open by a mortal group supposedly called the Homunculi who inherated the powers of the Seven Deadly Sins, and began to wreak havoc upon nearby towns and cities, spreading through Africa and Europe.

This is all what I have from the current mission G.O.D. has given me to report to all.

Love,
-Aya


Wednesday, June 08, 2005

The Last Calling: Farwell

It's been sealed. Many years of growing as a family, working together, and saving this planet from the sinful supernatural beings that wants to end this world. This was our last calling towards home, it was the calling for our very last good bye.

For whatever the reason there has to be, life seems so empty now that the Star's trial has timed out. It hurts to see everyone go. ... Everyone seemed to changed so much, and some actually grew up so maturely. It was a very sad day for everyone... but it was a new beginning... for me.

[to be continued]


Friday, May 27, 2005

Far away from home.

Away from any civilization. Away from the Manor. Away from all the memories of these years together becoming one as family with the stars and watching it grow. My time has come to move on. Since the scare of the previous battle, everything seems so calm.

Weeks before I left, I was assigned to retrieve Luna from the young half demon prince, Yotsuba. As I arrived to their little hide out, it was something between them that it had appeared to be something from a fairtale. I had walked into something that they had decided to share together. It slight hurt me to walk into something like that, knowing what Luna was, and knowing what Yotsuba was. Memories of me and Jesiah sharing such a union like that of Luna and Yotsuba hurts, knowing that I had loved Jesiah with the strongest forces of my well being and we could not be together because of such laws that were enforced by G.O.D. and the council. Against her will she came back home. Turned out that she was in love with this devilish man, I could tell in her eyes. It was a true tragedy for them both, in my opinion, because it was forbidden love. A love that one envies, a love similar to that of one of William Shakespeare's plays: Romeo and Juliet. However, it was something that they both had together that, from what it seem, kept them alive. I believe they both knew that it was forbidden to have such a union between an Angel (a star), and a family member of the Royal Family from Hell. Half Human, or not. It was from what he was in terms of a being, where he's from, that this union cannot be placed.

Luna had brought up a very good point of who can judge someone truly of what they are, and not of their actions. She had said How can you judge him to be evil if he is from hell. He is not evil... He's a good person, and badly misunderstood. She had reason to her cries. And I believed her too. I've been through the same trails and tribulations as the one Luna walks on. It is painful to see that one would be punished for loving someone that is an enemy or someone higher in rank and authority than you are. This had happened to me.

The more I had fell in love with Jesiah, the more and more it had become hard to see one another. He was from the Injiyuu, he was one that was supernatural. A spirit. He would take hold of a faux body for a night and come to me for a night of true embracement. Then in the morning he would leave me. I  understand now. I haven't noticed it before... I hadn't knowed that the Injiyuu was the undead. I had misunderstood him. I had accused him of never spending time with me. I am such a fool. And the only way that would could have been together was that I would train to be an Injiyuu member, like him, and that would result of losing my body and surrendering my sould to G.O.D. and undergo very heavy training to rank high or as near as Jesiah. I hadn't noticed it at first. And it burned me to know that it was against the Star's orders to fall in love with those of the supernatural and/or the enemy. To complete a union like the one Jesiah and I shared, or that of Luna and Yotsuba, was considered to be a sin. Forbidden. An abonmination would be born into the world, because it was a creation of those from two different worlds. Such actions would cause so much mayhem that, if possible, both worlds will unite and destroy the union and their creation. It is a horrible fate to be in, both in love, both from different worlds, and both doomed to a fate of then embracement of death, because of their love.

I had stayed in my room, picking up my old violin, the violin I had not played years and years ago and I played a song that over flooded my heart. But it could not be sung, and I could not play. I stayed there, finally putting away the violin and managed to work the cd player that I have never touched since the day I bought it. Then, I had remembered I had one disc from a Japanese Singer by the name of Gackt. And I played a track called Last Song, and then another track called Pieces of a Dream. Both songs are beautiful and strong with it lyrics of such Love. Strength. Faith and so on. The moments I stayed locked in my room, with no contact to the outside world, nor those of my fellow team mates. I had become sick. Hurt. I was being killed by the longings of Jesiah. Of the assignment I had to execute, Luna's decision, everything was painful. Everything brought my mind vivid images and punishments that I walked through. I know that she's walking through much more horrible things. My sympathy goes out towards Luna and Yotsuba.

Although it was many weeks ago, I believe months now. I still remember the dream I had the night of my last day in my isolation in my room. It was of my younger years. Something I haven't told anyone, nor even wrote in this journal. It was when I was the age of 12. I had wandered the plains of Italy, walking away from Kukuru Mountain, and there I met a young boy by the name of Kino. He was 13, I believe, he was slightly taller than me, fair skin, the most beautiful gray eyes, black hair, and he wore an old tattered trench coat with goggles that were sometimes placed on the top of his head, or around his neck.. He was a traveler on a mission to know what was out there in the world. He did not know of the assassin family, nor did he know how vicious my family was. On the day I ran away, it was his last day in town, it was raining on that day, and he came to me, he looked at me and I fell onto the ground running away from the Gates of Kukuru Mountain. At that time I thought he had left and I wouldn't be able to say goodbye. Turned out that he came to see me. I remember that it was the only time I cried for someone when I was young. I had fallen in love so quickly with Kino, the traveler. And he had returned to me and give his departing words, and when that happened, I cried. And he kissed my tears away and gave me a dagger and a letter. (The letter read: It's been fun being in Italy and becoming friends with you. Hope to see you again. Sharing a kiss for the first time was nice, I'll never forget it). I'll never forget either I thought.  Then he said that one day he'll come back to visit. Or that one day we will meet again. Then he set out toward the road on his motorrad, that spoke from some strange reason, and the bike's name was Hermes. That was the last time I saw him. And I knew that I had fell in love with Kino because it hurt to see him go. It was a child's crush, small puppy love. And then I, too, set out into the world and joined the Hunter's Exam. How easily one can forget about the smallest things in life that truly affects one... and you remember the things that made an impact, like making friends, and keeping them. But the first love, first kiss, first crush all those was overshadowed by my year and a half long exam.... I slightly regret it because I haven't kept my promise because I did forget. The day he and I experienced our first kiss, he had told me that he and I couldn't be boyfriend and girlfriend because he traveled a lot and I was an assassin. Two different worlds, two different destinies, we both knew that it would never worked out even if he and I had an agreement. We both were young, and we loved eachother, even if it was for three days of becoming friends and sharing one kiss. I'll never forget again. My only regret was that I forgot such a treasured promise... this is the only thing I regret.

Well, it was the day after that dream that I got out of my room and walked around the Manor for one last time, and it had brought memories, both good and bad. The laughters shared, the tears that were caused, the fights, the dinners, the parties, the holiday events, everything. It hurt badly to see these things just a memory now. No one was home. Not even Kyuzo. I was the only one that stayed behind. Luna, I believe, was locked in her room, or went to get judged. Dorian was off doing his own thing. Kyuzo, I believe was in Heaven to know what his punishment would be. The Alichinoes, Myoubi and Shiro, fleed from the manor. Hitomi left as well. Stealth, it's been told that he sleeps in the acient oak tree. Koroki returned, to just find an empty house and he left again. Leilube disappeared, along with Seth. Philip, I believe, returned to America. Othello returned to Japan. Ocea went to do his own thing in the world. And everyone was gone. I was walking the vacant halls of this once filled home. The stars family broke away and died, or so it seems. Such loneliness hurts. I grew attached to everyone here... and everyone was gone.

I should leave as well, and that's how it began.... before I could finally decide on my decision Kyuzo came home. And there, he walked towards me and told me everything that had happened. Then he exposed his heart out wards me, how often he would dream of the things he did to me in vain, how wrong he treated me, how much I had suffered. I believe he was just saying such things because I wasn't still over Jesiah. Nor Kino. (Not even Viktor). Well, he had convenced me to stay, and I did stay. I began to work on the garden I had worked on years ago. It was brought back to life and it struck me. I was reliving a memory years ago, of Kyuzo and I. Kyuzo had brought it to my attention and it hurts because of what followed after such a fruitful memory. And I grew to Love him again. I saw it in his eyes that he continued to love me, even if had denied it oh so many years ago. He began to speak of such fruitful memories that neither both of us forgot.

Those days became more and more like a fairytale. It was just him and me, alone in the manor, together. Like the earlier years of me being here. It made me content to have someone to love again, and that someone return such passion. I hadn't forgotten Luna's ordeal, nor Kino, nor Viktor, nor Jesiah. And the soul of the Manor was dying, it become a dreadful place to stay in. Each wall held a story, secrets, and memories. Which all spoke like the wind and there was no one in the halls of this manor to hear it's howls in the middle of the night. I didn't even think Luna was around anymore. The silence of the manor got to me, exposed me to solitary like that of my old home, Kukuro mansion. It was something I wish not to go through.

Then I suddenly left, without collecting my things. I had left a note on the bulletin in the lobby. The Manor had become overwhelming for one to live there. I had become stressed out due to things in the manor, everything and everyone in it... and I couldn't take anymore of it's silence. I got up and left. I didn't even tell Kyuzo that I left.

I ran away to a place that was isolated all on it's own, and to accompany me was a small pitbull puppy, whom I named as Baine. My get-away home resides the outskirts of a woodland area. Away from civilization. Yet close enough to a town to get food and things that I need for my stay here. It's fairly small, for a person to live in, and it's away from the memories I had with those that had disappeared in time and space. Even being in the manor and being close to Kyuzo, it still hurts because I fear that he would do the same thing he had done in the past. I could not go back to Kukuru Mountain, where Mike: the huge demon white Dog lives to protect Kukuru Mansion, due to the unsuspected attack Itachi did upon my family, whom he killed, and those memories of my family, what I did as I was young, and those treasured moments of Kino. I couldn't go back to Damascus, where my white pheonix rest: Damascus, because of my vivid memories of the horrible masacre that occursed there many many years ago, of Viktor and of Misha (Nina)'s death. I could not go to Egypt, Where Fubar: the griffon that takes guard of my home, to my safe house because of those memorable embracements I had shared with Jesiah. I could not stay in the manor anylonger, although everything was right again, everything was away from danger, everything was ok between Kyuzo and I, everything else was missing like the laughters of everyone that lived there, the meetings, the missions, the teamwork, everyone... everyone who lived there were now gone... Luna, Shiro, Myoubi, Philip, Seth, Leilubei, Dorian, Nina, Lore, Othello, Koroki, Stealth, Ocea, even Kyuzo, Dyne, Yotsuba, Jesiah ... they were all gone. It was that empty. Kyuzo was the only one that came back, and we both relived our faded happy memories and every single moment we shared I feared the worse that he would do the things he did in the past and would end up hurting me again, leaving me again, I got scared and left... Obviously, I needed to clear my head.

I pray that everyone is well and safe wherever they are. I hope that one day everyone will come back home and we will have that one last battle, if there is one by the time everyone comes back, and we all will fight side by side... like the old days. I pray that everyone will make it in life and in the after life, everyone will unite in heaven, and then we will know that our time on Earth has done it's purpose.... Love you all, and take care. Be safe... and always remember.

Expect a picture of everyone here soon

Love,
-Aya

 

[To Be Continued...]



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